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Title: Vernal Equinox, Redux
Author: [ profile] morrobay1990
Genre: canon – 3/20/82
Word count: 300
Disclaimer: Jack & Ennis are AP's.
♥ Ennis ♥

1st day of spring

Ennis had watched Jack with the egg - saw him throw it, saw it hit the tree - between bites of scrambled eggs and potatoes, which, he said to himself, he had cooked damn near he set his plate on the ground, stood up and took a few steps towards Jack.

“Y’know there might just be somethin to that egg thing...c’mon over here and try it.”

“Ennis, y’mind? Ain’t exactly in the mood.”

He disregarded the angry tone in Jack’s voice and pushed him, causing Jack to back up a step towards the tent.

"Believe I know a thing or two about gettin you in the don’t you wanna see if you can balance that egg?"

He pushed Jack again, and his hand went to his belt, then button, then zipper, Jack’s face and mood brightening.

Ennis smiled.

“Or maybe I got another trick to show ya...first day of spring bein so special n’all...maybe that egg ain’t the only thing can stand on its end.”

Jack laughed at that, the sight of Ennis coming on to him, the sound of playful words so seldom heard were a soothing balm to his spirit.

He got out of his shirt and jeans and spread a blanket over the hard ground, reached up to pull Ennis down on top of him, kissing him breathless.

When they broke apart to breathe, Ennis reached over and took an egg from the fireside, balanced it in the soft hollow of Jack’s belly button, where it stayed upright for two seconds before falling softly to the ground as Jack exploded in laughter.

Ennis held him down, looking at him with a softness to his expression...the look Jack referred to in his own mind as love.

“See, Jack, you was right...all kinda things possible on the first day of spring.”

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Date: 2013-03-21 02:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh Jeez! That was adorable!


Date: 2013-03-21 11:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thanks! "adorable" is hard for me...

Date: 2013-03-21 03:18 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile]
♫ Spring is in the air... ♫

Date: 2013-03-21 11:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
ah, yes, when a man's fancy turns to...whatever he fancies



Date: 2013-03-21 03:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

Well, I understand Jack's frustration, and Ennis' desire to smooth over whatever made Jack angry enough to throw the egg. Still, in the end, "all the king's horses and all the king's men..." unless Ennis becomes willing to change.

Well written.

Thanks again.


Re: Equinox

Date: 2013-03-21 11:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Hi Bud,
thanks, and you're quite right of course. And I can't change Ennis...

Date: 2013-03-21 08:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Jack is always ready to forget about his frustration, it only takes a snap of Ennis' fingers. And sometimes this frustrates me to the point that the good writing is not enough.

You know I love your style Nancy, don't take it personally. But this is one of those times that I wish I could slap Ennis in the face, or throw a well deserved punch at him.

Sorry I just had to get this out of my chest, it's been bothering me for a while now.

Date: 2013-03-21 11:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Hi Jules,

I never take it personally, nor do I take offense when an intelligent point is made and a reader gives their opinion, I love that. And don’t think I don’t agree with you on some level, I can only try to explain what I see.

By now you know my heart lies with canon, with all its sadness and reality; and beyond that, I believe that in real life, most – not all, but most – relationships are tilted to one side...meaning that one person loves and the other is loved.

Or perhaps I should say one person loves the other more than they themselves are loved. I’ve been on both sides of that, I’ve been both a Jack and an Ennis, and it sure is easier on the heart being Ennis...even though it’s difficult to hurt someone, it’s a trait of self-preservation – easier to hurt than be hurt.

That sounds very callous, and I don’t mean it to; when you love someone and it doesn’t last for whatever reason, both people are hurt...but one is hurt more, and I believe, suffers more.

When I write these things, I try very hard to follow canon, and to me, of the 2 men, Jack is the one who loves more, and so in my stories, he will suffer more. Although when I write of Ennis after Jack, he is also in pain.

But I can’t blame Ennis for Jack’s predicament; in his particular case I truly believe he’s doing the best he can. We can all say why doesn’t he just be a man, grow up and admit his love for Jack...but you know it’s more than just that, right? And I don’t think he takes advantage of Jack, his feelings are there, they are real, they’re just not as strong as Jack’s are, and neither is he.

After the fight at the trailhead (or before, for that matter), Jack is free to quit Ennis, but feels that he can’t; I think if he had lived there would have come a time when he did leave Ennis, so for Ennis the ending would be the same: he’d be alone.

If Jack didn’t die but only left Ennis, we don’t know if Ennis would have realized his feelings as love...he might have just been really pissed at Jack for dumping him. It took Jack’s death to make Ennis see what he had all along.

Damn, I hope you managed to stay awake while you read this! I’m not trying to change your mind, and I’m glad you left your comment. I never get to debate or discuss the OS with anyone, so if I see an open door...

Thank you...

Date: 2013-03-22 01:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Of course I stayed awake and I really enjoyed reading more from you. I know you stick to canon no matter what and I have to say that your canon stories are among the best I've read, if a little on the somber side.

I can share your reasoning behind Ennis' behavior but honestly, what really is frustrating to me is Jack's behavior, not Ennis's. Yes, I wanted to slap Ennis in the face for once again hurting Jack but it's Jack's easy surrender that royally pisses me off at times. No wonder one of my favorite classics is 'Somebody New'. I loved how Ennis had to sweat blood there to have Jack back.

After the fight at the trailhead (or before, for that matter), Jack is free to quit Ennis, but feels that he can’t; I think if he had lived there would have come a time when he did leave Ennis, so for Ennis the ending would be the same: he’d be alone.

That's exactly it. Jack is free to quit Ennis but feels that he can't so who's really to blame, Jack who won't say 'no' to the umpteenth heartbreak or Ennis who keeps stomping on his best friend and lover's heart?

As for your belief that in real life one loves and one is loved there's been a time in my life when I shared that sentiment. Then I realized that love is pure selfishness, from both parts. Which is not as bad as it seems :-)
Edited Date: 2013-03-22 04:36 pm (UTC)

Date: 2013-03-22 05:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
This is excellent! You make very good points.

Do you really think that Ennis is "stomping on his best friend and lover's heart."

Or is that just the way we see it from the outside?

That's Jack's take on it, for interpretation through writing of Jack in between fishing trips is that he feels cheated, and feels that Ennis is a heart-stomper...he uses those feelings as the rationalization to see other men, do you see it that way, too? Sort of "if he doesn't want me, someone else will."

I'm still pondering your thought of "love is pure selfishness, from both parts"....

thanks for this :)

Date: 2013-03-21 08:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Not quite *all* kinda things. Neither egg ever breaks to a chicken; even the second remains an unexplored possibility, intact. This is an unusual and intense follow-up, apparently lighter, but not really. Good work, thank you.

Date: 2013-03-21 11:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Apparently lighter, but not really".


Thank you.
Edited Date: 2013-03-21 11:55 pm (UTC)

Date: 2013-03-21 11:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
♥ right back atcha - thanks so much.
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