"...quit if he had to..." - 5
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morrobay1990Title: “...quit if he had to...” - 5
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morrobay1990
Genre: post canon
Warning:
Word count: 470
Disclaimer: Jack & Ennis are AP's
♥ Jack
Ennis went back to ranch work, hired on here and there, not getting much ahead but glad enough to be around stock again, free to drop things, quit if he had to, and go into the mountains at short notice.
Jack had brought the pot with him.
They set up the tent, got the fire going, smoked a joint, made love...love, not like when they first saw each other.
To Ennis's surprise, when he got high this time, feelings surfaced that he was usually able to shove down...he felt them now and let them come...didn't, while he was here with Jack, make them disappear.
Such an indulgence...the warm, secret, familiar, comforting, secure feelings...Jack was here, and it was all right...Jack was here and it was right.
Ennis was eager to give, and brought out the venison to cook and Jack's eyes lit up as he realized the thought and expense Ennis had put into it.
Jack said, “Damn, maybe you do think about me sometimes, after all...sonofabitch, that's gonna taste good...just don't burn it, huh?”
“Why don't you just come over and cook it yourself, you think you can do any better...as I recall, your exact words was that you couldn't “cook worth a shit”...can't argue you with ya, either, bud...so why don't you just leave it to me?”
Jack got two folding chairs out of his truck and set them up, “Hey, you can cook for me anytime...”, he said as he settled into one...then wished he hadn't said it.
Ennis noticed that, noticed that what he had done was appreciated...noticed, not for the first time, that his absence in Jack's life was difficult for Jack...and uncharacteristically, delayed their dinner as he went to Jack, put his arms around him and pulled him close...threaded his fingers through his hair...kissed him, softer than rain...said some words in his ear that Jack would take with him...
Those whispered words...treasures...worth a kings ransom to Jack...
you know I miss you...y'know that, right? you know I think about you...about us...Jack...darlin...Jack...you know that
They leaned into each other, blending together for a moment...he felt Ennis's lips in his hair, on his skin...those words burning into his mind.
And Jack knew why...he'd always known...he'd never forgotten - any other man be damned - he knew why he was here...why he'd always be here, no matter what...no matter how hard the rest of his life was.
It was so simple.
They were part of each other. It was a bond that couldn't be broken...a bond stronger than steel...it was first love...love formed from a simple, basic need.
It happened at the beginning, that night on Brokeback...they were each so accepting of the other, no questions, no explanations, just open souls...no one could take their place...if one left, there would only be an empty space, unable to be filled by anyone else.
Ennis kissed him then, moved away and walked back over to the fire, leaving Jake to fend for himself...without wanting to, Jack felt a huge, cold, open gap where Ennis had been.
But it was early...they had days in front of them...
Author:
morrobay1990Genre: post canon
Warning:
Word count: 470
Disclaimer: Jack & Ennis are AP's
♥ Jack
Ennis went back to ranch work, hired on here and there, not getting much ahead but glad enough to be around stock again, free to drop things, quit if he had to, and go into the mountains at short notice.
Jack had brought the pot with him.
They set up the tent, got the fire going, smoked a joint, made love...love, not like when they first saw each other.
To Ennis's surprise, when he got high this time, feelings surfaced that he was usually able to shove down...he felt them now and let them come...didn't, while he was here with Jack, make them disappear.
Such an indulgence...the warm, secret, familiar, comforting, secure feelings...Jack was here, and it was all right...Jack was here and it was right.
Ennis was eager to give, and brought out the venison to cook and Jack's eyes lit up as he realized the thought and expense Ennis had put into it.
Jack said, “Damn, maybe you do think about me sometimes, after all...sonofabitch, that's gonna taste good...just don't burn it, huh?”
“Why don't you just come over and cook it yourself, you think you can do any better...as I recall, your exact words was that you couldn't “cook worth a shit”...can't argue you with ya, either, bud...so why don't you just leave it to me?”
Jack got two folding chairs out of his truck and set them up, “Hey, you can cook for me anytime...”, he said as he settled into one...then wished he hadn't said it.
Ennis noticed that, noticed that what he had done was appreciated...noticed, not for the first time, that his absence in Jack's life was difficult for Jack...and uncharacteristically, delayed their dinner as he went to Jack, put his arms around him and pulled him close...threaded his fingers through his hair...kissed him, softer than rain...said some words in his ear that Jack would take with him...
Those whispered words...treasures...worth a kings ransom to Jack...
you know I miss you...y'know that, right? you know I think about you...about us...Jack...darlin...Jack...you know that
They leaned into each other, blending together for a moment...he felt Ennis's lips in his hair, on his skin...those words burning into his mind.
And Jack knew why...he'd always known...he'd never forgotten - any other man be damned - he knew why he was here...why he'd always be here, no matter what...no matter how hard the rest of his life was.
It was so simple.
They were part of each other. It was a bond that couldn't be broken...a bond stronger than steel...it was first love...love formed from a simple, basic need.
It happened at the beginning, that night on Brokeback...they were each so accepting of the other, no questions, no explanations, just open souls...no one could take their place...if one left, there would only be an empty space, unable to be filled by anyone else.
Ennis kissed him then, moved away and walked back over to the fire, leaving Jake to fend for himself...without wanting to, Jack felt a huge, cold, open gap where Ennis had been.
But it was early...they had days in front of them...
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Date: 2011-05-31 02:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-05-31 02:50 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-05-31 03:08 am (UTC)Susan
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Date: 2011-05-31 03:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-05-31 07:09 am (UTC).. and this is it, right? this is the only true explanation of it all, for both of them..
wonderful how you captured this moment of tenderness despite the reality they both have to face.
thank you.
"quit if he had to..."
Date: 2011-05-31 03:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-05-31 04:04 pm (UTC)love
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Date: 2011-05-31 05:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-05-31 08:45 pm (UTC)to have it all and to know it will end soon
thanks
Paula
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Date: 2011-06-01 12:59 am (UTC)Beautiful...
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Date: 2012-07-02 10:58 am (UTC)Those whispered words...treasures...worth a kings ransom to Jack...
you know I miss you...y'know that, right? you know I think about you...about us...Jack...darlin...Jack...you know that
This made my broken heart weep with joy. Oh Ennis... :)
This is also what I wish they'd shown in the film more. There was a lot of sitting around, staring, drinking, talking but no tender moments or any other for that matter. For the casual observer, what J&E had might not be that obvious and therefor the film might leave them cold (or whatever)...
I'm babbling again..geez what is it with your story that makes me go off on a tangent? ;p
This is great, thank you for sharing it with us.
Nev