October 11

[morrobay1990]

Title: October 11
Author: morrobay1990
Warning:
Genre: canon/1990
Word count: 200
Disclaimer: They are AP's
♥ Jack











Ennis leaned on the counter, his back to the sink, facing the little window to nowhere, sipped his coffee and mentally made a list of things he had to do today, which included, after work, picking up a ton of hay for his horses and bags of sweet feed for the barn horses, mailing a bill at the post office so the electric company wouldn’t shut off his power, and stopping at Junior’s, where he’d promised to look at a leaky faucet in her kitchen, since Kurt was still out on the rig.

It meant a long day but he welcomed it, knew he’d be tired by the time he got home…the dream last night had been a good one and he’d been dog-tired last night...seemed the dreams were always better when he was overtired…he slept so deep and he could see Jack’s face so clear...sometimes he’d see him like he was in ’63, sometimes he’d be older...snapshots of their time together...once in a while he’d be granted the reliving of a favorite day – or night...after dreams like this, when Jack seemed so close, he’d wake up feeling like in the old days...almost...

He turned and dumped his coffee into the sink, rinsed the cup and got ready for his long day that would take him into a better night.

Comments

[annabuffy.livejournal.com]

Sad. But Ennis contributed to his own situation with Jack.

[morrobay1990.livejournal.com]

He did; they were both responsible, and both unable to do anything but what they did...

thanks for reading and commenting

October 11

[cwby30.livejournal.com]

Evenin'.

Well, I've been reading along, and thoroughly enjoy your posts. Hope you keep on going. Ennis lives with regrets every day, but can never go back except in dreams. Glad he does keep focused in his today, and has built a relationship with Junior after leaving her alone with Alma for so many years after that Thanksgiving. Wonder what his November 11 is like each year.

Thanks again.

Bud

Re: October 11

[morrobay1990.livejournal.com]

Hi Bud,
Very glad you've been reading, and that you let me know you like it.

That's Ennis's punishment, to have nothing left but his dreams, and he has no more control over them than he did over the choices he made while Jack was alive...

thanks

[mazaher.livejournal.com]

Living with regrets. A side-effect of being a responsible person. It's so easy to invent excuses or downright lies to justify oneself in retrospect. Responsible Ennis instead makes mental lists of things that can make someone else's life better and keep him grounded in here-and-now reality. This doesn't mean that Jack is missed any less, nor that he will ever be-- as it is right that it be. This story imo catches very well the "after" time. Thank you!

[morrobay1990.livejournal.com]

Oh thanks, that's what I'm going for, Ennis's "time after"...

thank you

Living on Memories

[joetheone.livejournal.com]

When we live on memories and regrets it makes the days very long and the nights seem too short. Joe

Re: Living on Memories

[morrobay1990.livejournal.com]

I can't change the end of the original story, but I can try to explore what Ennis's time was like, after Jack, and maybe have him heal...just a little.

thanks so much

[gwylliondream.livejournal.com]

I wonder how long a person like Ennis would allow himself to suffer before he finally either offed himself or got some therapy. It would probably be decades, but what a waste of his energy to suffer so.

[morrobay1990.livejournal.com]

I think with his final realization at finding the shirts he was able to let the past bring him some comfort...or at least feel some comfort from reliving his past...he's still shaping his time and his life around Jack...only now it's every night...

thanks