"...and he found ways to spend it." - 11

[morrobay1990]

Title: “...and he found ways to spend it...” - 11
Author: morrobay1990
Genre: post canon
Warning:
Word count: 400
Disclaimer: Jack & Ennis are AP's
♥ Jack



”Down in Texas Jack's father-in-law died and Lureen, who inherited the farm equipment business, showed a skill for management and hard deals. Jack found himself with a vague managerial title, traveling to stock and agricultural shows. He had some money now and found ways to spend it."



















If you came right down to it, being with Michael wasn't cheating. Not really.

You can only cheat if there is something solid, something concrete, between two people...if you both care about each other, and there's some kind of commitment...if you're together, even when it isn't easy...doesn't even have to be with a piece of paper...but it has to be a hell of a lot more than he had with Ennis.

Wait - what was it he had with Ennis again?

Oh yeah - nothin.









“Can I fuck you?”

Jack considered the question.

He was stretched out on a sleeping bag, mind drifting on a haze of pot that they had smoked earlier. The offer was tempting but at the moment he was more than content to stay where he was and not exert any energy.

He noticed that Michael hadn't made a move either, and it occurred to him that he was probably as stoned and comfortable as Jack was.

He opened his eyes a little and saw Michael looking at him, and suddenly they both erupted in waves of laughter...laughing until their sides hurt...until their faces hurt...the release of all that emotion wearing them out.

After a minute, Jack extended his arm out on the ground and Michael crawled over to him, picked it up and kissed the palm, holding Jack's hand against his face, murmured, “Sweet...sweet...”

He unbuttoned Jack's shirt and unzipped his jeans, moved his lips over his body...what he didn't kiss, he touched with his hands. He laid down and pulled Jack next to him, but there was none of the frantic heat of the night before.

Michael traced a finger along Jack's face, touched his lips, soft and tender...lifted his chin to kiss, but barely touching...looking in his eyes and, his voice low, said words that Jack had never heard...or if he had, he didn't remember.

“...lovely...beautiful...you feel so good...so good...”

He kept touching him so softly, saying quiet words that enveloped them both in a sort of peaceful dream state...Jack closed his eyes and was swept along with the current, the tide of feelings he hadn't felt since...

“Stop...”

Michael looked up at him from heavy-lidded eyes and said in his soft Texas drawl, “Darlin, I like bein here with you...you make me happy...don't tell me to stop...not unless you mean it. Do you mean it?”

He kissed Jack's neck and felt him shiver, “No, I ain't gonna stop...”

Comments

[juliathecat.livejournal.com]

This story is really good. Heartbreaking and beautiful.

Thanks.

[eandj.livejournal.com]

if you have to think about it whether it's cheating or not it probably is Jack. You will feel it in your heart later
Paula

S;pending it

[cwby30.livejournal.com]

Mornin'.

Well, as others have said, I get this bad/sad feeling in my gut every time I read a chapter. Jack's been fooling himself for years, and seems now to finally realize he and Ennis have really only that one thing in common: first love, so deep it won't ever leave. He can't run away from it, so he either has to end the trysts in the mountains or give in and let it be what it is. I can't help but think this affair with Michael will lead to The Great Argument.

Great writing.

Thanks again.

Bud

[sjmarv.livejournal.com]

Sorry to leave a ditto comment, but what Bud & Paula said. Just want you to know I'm still reading and enjoying/weeping.

Susan

[mazaher.livejournal.com]

"Sweet", Michael says, and it breaks me a little bit because it is something men don't usually say, or allow to be said to them. I am touched that this happens, there and then. It makes me feel that this is not just a fuck or three, not at all, for either of them.
Hmmm... truth be told, I'd like to see some new bits in Staying in Signal, before this dangerous trip goes much further...

[soulan.livejournal.com]

Now guys just say "sweeeeeet" about anything.

ETA: American teenage guys, I mean.

I agree, we need to take a break from this with Staying in Signal. I want to find out if the shack has a voodoo spell on it.

[mazaher.livejournal.com]

"ETA: American teenage guys, I mean".
The keyword being "teenage" =)
I'm happy that the world is moving on!

[soulan.livejournal.com]

He kept touching him so softly, saying quiet words that enveloped them both in a sort of peaceful dream state...Jack closed his eyes and was swept along with the current, the tide of feelings he hadn't felt since...

“Stop...”

...because you're murdering the dozy embrace memory! No wonder this is so heartbreaking.

mix it up and spit it out

[joetheone.livejournal.com]

Well, the emotions to this are hard and difficult and speaking from someone who has been in both of these positions in their lives namely me. I'm confused just as I was when it happened to me in both situations. When, I was the one who was being Jack I know it hurt and felt empty but it also felt so dam good I did not want it to stop but I also knew I was hurting the person who I was with because it felt dam good but it was not real no matter how many times I talked myself into thinking it was real and something I could make like the other. But, then when I was on the other end the one having the time of my life and really thought I found the one for me and I was willing to quit school get a job move wherever they wanted but than being let down and hurt finding they truly had love for someone else was pretty darn crappy. In both situations in the end it hurt and even though it is quite a few years later I have to say I don't regret either situation but I also don't know if I ever made the correct decision and I also know that I feel I made the wrong one. I never did end up with the one I would think of when with this other person it all blew up but in a different way. Okay you have me thinking about my life too much but maybe this is therapy? Joe

Re: mix it up and spit it out

[mazaher.livejournal.com]

One thing is for sure, this is the point when I'd like to give you a big hug...
Also, yes, stories *are* therapy, both those we read and those we write. They remind us that each life is a story, and we are writing it. Giving it sense. Even when it hurts.
Thank you, I always learn a lot from your comments.

[tizi17.livejournal.com]

yeah this really sounds like therapy, joe... ;-) but i must say i appreciate your comments as much as i appreciate the story.
it is a different point of view here, but as i said, not really totally unbelievable..
we know there was randall, so jack had his own thing going.. question is, this here seems going toward a big hurt for someone.

"and he found ways to..."

[argentine65.livejournal.com]

Jack has found somebody that gives him what Ennis does not, but I don't believe he is going to left go to Ennis. There are so many years for them. But as other comments say: this is sad but beautifully write. Thank you so much. Martha

[heathyluv.livejournal.com]

Another great installment, Nancy.

[lomoroto.livejournal.com]

Enjoying your excellent writing but suffering for your characters. Thanks.

[ramona4jake.livejournal.com]

awesome story, I just read all 11 parts !! at this moment, I really wish Jack to be able to forget Enis and allow himself to be happy with Michael !!...