"...quit if he had to..."
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morrobay1990Title: “...quit if he had to...”
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morrobay1990
Genre: post canon
Warning:
Word count: 313
Disclaimer: Jack & Ennis are AP's
♥ Jack
Ennis went back to ranch work, hired on here and there, not getting much ahead but glad enough to be around stock again, free to drop things, quit if he had to, and go into the mountains at short notice.
But he couldn't always quit.
That last phone call from Jack...shit, he wanted to go, always wanted to go...why couldn't Jack understand that sometimes he just couldn't?
Even though Alma was married, he still had the child support and this month was even worse 'cause Jenny had to go to the emergency room for her asthma...poor kid suffered with it something awful...and doctors don't come cheap. Alma asked him to help out, pay half the bill...what was he supposed to do?
Sorry, Alma, I can't work no overtime to help pay for my kid's doctor, I gotta quit my job and go to the mountains so me and Jack can fuck.
He couldn't tell Jack all his problems, sound like he was asking for sympathy...or worse, money...so he put it on the foreman, told Jack the guy said he would put out the word that he wasn't worth hiring, wasn't dependable...goddamn it, he just couldn't quit like he used to.
But that phone call kind of bothered him, Jack sounded so...hopeless, or desperate or something.
Sometimes he wondered...didn't like to let his mind go there, but sometimes he wondered if Jack ever...if he would do something with another guy. He asked him once and Jack said no, but that was a long time ago, maybe he...maybe Lureen wasn't enough...he wondered if Jack ever did to Lureen what he used to do to Alma.
They sure were different, him and Jack. Ennis didn't know what to make of it half the time...sometimes Jack made him feel like he wasn't doing enough, like he wasn't there enough...and that goddamn cow and calf operation he kept bringing up...sure, it would be perfect...except for the part about getting beat to death.
And he wondered what it must be like to live like Jack lived...good job, regular hours, good money, nice house...even Lureen sounded like she was pretty good, for a wife.
Ennis did the best he could, got away as much as he could...shit, he wanted it, too...why couldn't Jack understand?
Well, he'd make it up to him next trip, it was only a month away.
Author:
morrobay1990Genre: post canon
Warning:
Word count: 313
Disclaimer: Jack & Ennis are AP's
♥ Jack
Ennis went back to ranch work, hired on here and there, not getting much ahead but glad enough to be around stock again, free to drop things, quit if he had to, and go into the mountains at short notice.
But he couldn't always quit.
That last phone call from Jack...shit, he wanted to go, always wanted to go...why couldn't Jack understand that sometimes he just couldn't?
Even though Alma was married, he still had the child support and this month was even worse 'cause Jenny had to go to the emergency room for her asthma...poor kid suffered with it something awful...and doctors don't come cheap. Alma asked him to help out, pay half the bill...what was he supposed to do?
Sorry, Alma, I can't work no overtime to help pay for my kid's doctor, I gotta quit my job and go to the mountains so me and Jack can fuck.
He couldn't tell Jack all his problems, sound like he was asking for sympathy...or worse, money...so he put it on the foreman, told Jack the guy said he would put out the word that he wasn't worth hiring, wasn't dependable...goddamn it, he just couldn't quit like he used to.
But that phone call kind of bothered him, Jack sounded so...hopeless, or desperate or something.
Sometimes he wondered...didn't like to let his mind go there, but sometimes he wondered if Jack ever...if he would do something with another guy. He asked him once and Jack said no, but that was a long time ago, maybe he...maybe Lureen wasn't enough...he wondered if Jack ever did to Lureen what he used to do to Alma.
They sure were different, him and Jack. Ennis didn't know what to make of it half the time...sometimes Jack made him feel like he wasn't doing enough, like he wasn't there enough...and that goddamn cow and calf operation he kept bringing up...sure, it would be perfect...except for the part about getting beat to death.
And he wondered what it must be like to live like Jack lived...good job, regular hours, good money, nice house...even Lureen sounded like she was pretty good, for a wife.
Ennis did the best he could, got away as much as he could...shit, he wanted it, too...why couldn't Jack understand?
Well, he'd make it up to him next trip, it was only a month away.
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communication
Date: 2011-05-28 01:48 pm (UTC)Re: communication
Date: 2011-05-28 01:55 pm (UTC)Re: communication
Date: 2011-05-28 06:33 pm (UTC)Re: communication
Date: 2011-05-28 06:56 pm (UTC)Re: communication
Date: 2011-05-28 07:16 pm (UTC)Re: communication
Date: 2011-05-28 09:15 pm (UTC)Re: communication
Date: 2011-05-28 10:05 pm (UTC)Re: communication
Date: 2011-05-30 01:46 am (UTC)Poor Ennis. Why do some people take it out so much on him?
How can anyone say he does not love Jack? These two are so tied together they could never quit - and the love between them is like glue.
It's all fate anyway. Ennis is so afraid of exposure.
Excuses
Date: 2011-05-28 03:08 pm (UTC)Even if things were different, even if he had plenty of money and all that, even if he never saw Earl in the ditch, he is always going to say NO.
Since Ennis is an adult, and not a moron, he surely know murder happened everywhere. One gay got murdered while thousands of straights got murdered as well. Even if he is a moron he would know many more people die on the road than being murdered, but I don't see him quit driving.
That's why at their last big fight Jack shouted 'We could have a good life together, BUT YOU DO NOT WANT IT!'. That's the whole problem, Ennis do NOT want a life with Jack, not at all.
I am really not interested in his excuses. If you do not want to do something, it is WAY too easy to come up with excuses.
Yes Ennis wants to fuck Jack, he does have lust about him. But he doesn't love him and do NOT want to live with him. End of story.
Re: Excuses
Date: 2011-05-28 06:54 pm (UTC)Gotta respect someone who knows without a doubt how they feel about these 2 particular characters...I'm always torn between them..
Re: Excuses
Date: 2011-05-29 01:27 am (UTC)He is simply incapable of loving anyone, man or woman.
Love for Ennis is a luxury, something he doesn't really need and could not afford.
Give an example: love for him is like a brand new Cadillac. It is not something Ennis wants, nor is it something he could afford.
Love for Jack is like air and water, and he couldn't survive without it. For Ennis, it is only a luxury and he is completely fine without it.
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Date: 2011-05-28 04:26 pm (UTC)Thanks!
Susan
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Date: 2011-05-28 06:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-05-28 06:25 pm (UTC)It really blows me away how this goddamn book/movie still pulls on our heartstrings the way it does. Shit, it's been five fuckin' years already, still hurts just as much now as it did then.
Looking forward to more of this story.
PS: Love that pic of Ennis. Don't think anyone else could have played the part of Ennis Del Mar other than Heath...
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Date: 2011-05-28 06:59 pm (UTC)Yeah, 5 years...I was gonna try to watch it this weekend but then my phone rang, The Wings ringtone, and I got choked up...so maybe later.
Ennis is harder to write about because he doesn't do anydamnthing!
Guess I could do a long, sexy weekend with him and Cassie...uh, nooooo
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Date: 2011-05-28 07:06 pm (UTC)Lol about Ennis... It's so goddamn true. You could write about him... uh...shifting through his mail in his trailer, between sips of whiskey...
Wow, the boy has no life, that's for sure.
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Date: 2011-05-28 06:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-05-28 07:04 pm (UTC)I know you thought I was ignoring your "hints" to write about Ennis's POV, or flashback about why Jack loved Ennis...but the other one was just Jack...since Ennis is pretty damn boring, this one might be shorter :)
might go right to their next trip, so he can "make it up" to Jack...but you know, it'll be the reader's responsibility to imagine their own explicit sex scenes, I just do lead-in...
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Date: 2011-05-28 07:03 pm (UTC)that's great - thanks
yes that's the main problem here- lack of communication.
If they only would talk, they could probably work something out or at least understand each other better.
Paula
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Date: 2011-05-28 07:08 pm (UTC)I'm so glad you're following along with this one...
I found, telling the story from Jack's POV, I was having an extremely difficult time justifying why he shouldn't tell Ennis to fuck off, and just run off with Michael...EDM has some damn hold on him (and I guess on us, too - except for Zhouhua00!)
thanks for all your comments
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Date: 2011-05-28 09:30 pm (UTC)Comunicación y orgullo
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Date: 2011-05-29 12:31 pm (UTC)thanks, Carmen
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Date: 2011-05-29 05:11 am (UTC)How is that you are able to get into the heart of soul of Ennis so well, this is terrific.
Thank you
Lorna
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Date: 2011-05-29 12:34 pm (UTC)It's so good to hear from you, and I'm really happy that you like the series.
Such a compliment you gave, thank you.
And I know you mentioned that you like the pictures of Wyoming, I'm glad it adds something for you. I try to find just the right thing for each story...
thanks again
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Date: 2011-05-29 05:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-05-29 09:02 am (UTC)thank you.
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Date: 2011-05-29 12:35 pm (UTC)thanks so much for reading and commenting.
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Date: 2011-05-29 01:32 pm (UTC)Maybe I'll force Ennis to talk in this one...it wouldn't be so out of character for OS Ennis, he talked way more than movie Ennis...
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Date: 2012-07-02 10:41 am (UTC)I agree with others, Ennis was full of excuses, job this, money that, Earl there..bla. He was scared of admitting to himself who he was and what Jack was to him and from there grew the fear of what others would think and do and so forth. It was a goddamn spiral of fear and there was no way for him to get out of it. Sadly :(
What he should've done (someone said that in another story once and I thought it was quite a good thought) is to get in that truck with Jack after Brokeback and use the month that they still had to be together, work..whatever. But no... loyalty to Alma...damn!
Anyway..sorry for the long-winded babble. Looking forward to the rest.
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Date: 2012-07-08 09:34 pm (UTC)Ennis was scared, as you said, and he didn't know how to talk to Jack about it. That bothers me so much, that they were so in love, but were never really there for each other...guess that's why there are so many HEA stories out there...but mine aren't, they stay closer to AP's original.
thanks again
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Date: 2012-08-13 08:03 pm (UTC)Nev